#62

Assalamualaikum all.

I have lived for 27 years now and I went through ups and downs in my working life. first and foremost, I started working about two months after my graduation. If I can recall, it was in mid Nov 2015. Yes, I started early as I am helping my father's friend to take care of his company. It is pretty difficult to adapt at first. I studied English and I decided not to be a teacher. And my father's friend already proposed me to work in his company even I am still studying. 

Because I am an obedient child, I agree to my father's request. I trained in Singapore for two months and the rest is in Johor Bahru. Ouh, I work in a money service business (read: money changer). This is a whole new experience for me. It doesn't took me long that I feel like resigning. But I always have the thought of my father at the back of my head that makes me re-think of my decision. 

This company is a mess I tell you. I work for 6 days a week with no annual leave nor public holiday leave accept for Eid (two days only). And after these whole year that I've been stressing out, I finally get to go out of this company without having to think of my father because this company will be closing soon. 

I know I will lost my source of income but hey! Knowing that I can finally be free from this is wayyyyyy more important than my income at this moment. I am happy to be able to go out of this. I know I have loans to pay monthly but heck. Rezeki Allah tu luas. I am a firm believer of that. Maybe this is the answer to all my prayers. 

I worked day and night for this company. I struggle so much that I cried almost every night. Here's the thing. I am a family person. Knowing that I didn't have the opportunity to spend my time with my family makes me sad. During my pregnancy period, I worked 8 am to 12midnight almost every day. Can you imagine how tiring it is? Again, losing my job is the answer to my prayer. I have no regrets. Maybe this few months would be really challenging for me but I will try my best to handle my jobless situation peacefully (read: I cant online shop). 

Okay, with all that being said, I actually wanted to tell that I am grateful that I lose my job (is that even makes sense to you?) and that I am able to fee myself from this unwanted situation. I hope that I will get a new job with a better working environment soon. Please pray for me.

Loves,

Alya